Who I am and what brought me here

My birthname is Maria.

Ever since I was a toddler, I’ve been fascinated by the miracle of life.

This life began with a birth five weeks early and brought with it a fair share of intense and traumatising experiences. They led me, as a curious and open spirit, to search for meaning and purpose.

It brought me to many trainings (*see further down) and deep explorations, fed by questions like, “Are we here to remember who we are? Are we here to grow and expand? Are we continuing what began many lifetimes ago? And did we make a plan or commitment before we were born, a plan we forgot while growing up?”

A life-changing experience was the stillbirth of my first child. As from that moment I moved from simply reading about spirituality and self-realisation to actually living and experiencing it. At first, I reached “upward”, looking for lightness and relief, wanting to escape the deep pain. But then I realised my body was holding all these memories.
So I began to give my body the attention and support she needed, I began to hear her, to hear and feel myself, like never before.
  

Even though my lasting curiosity and hunger to learn, to expand and grow, somewhere along the way, I also began to realise my own value and what I was adding value to the fields I worked in. My “unique wiring”, or the way my brain works, was not always understood and welcomed. From a young age, I often heard and felt I was “too much”: too quick, too clever, too articulate, too pretty, too this, too that.

A painful work-experience, where I was considered ‘too fast and smart’ or simply too much, broke me, yet I was also broken open. This experience brought me into stillness, and allowed me to deeply listen and return to my essence.  It allowed me to receive clear messages about what I was here to offer. And for the first time in my life, I didn’t create with willpower, instead I gave myself time, I received time, I took time to let it ‘the new’ unfold.

ourESSENCE.now was born from the longing of life itself — life that speaks through me, that lives in me, that I am and embody.

And life itself, that’s what you are too.

I’m gladly inviting you to re-member who you truly are.
And to support you with all kinds of tools I offer online, that can help you re-member?  With my words, voice and energy I’m here to guide and support you. Or you can travel with me, for a real life and in depth experience.

I wish that every day, sometimes with ease, sometimes through resistance, you choose to give yourself the chance to re-member…the wonder that you are, the wholeness that you are.

Welcome.

A few of the courses I’ve done over the years.

* Lightbody-course and certified meditation teacher at the Lightbody institute
* Reiki initiate and Shambala-master
* Oneness university to become a Deeksha-provider
* Ramtha School of Enlightenment
* Anthony Robbins, Unleash the power within
* TRE© certified provider and TRE© advanced courses
* Systemical work and family constellations, certification training from Indra Torsten Preiss
* NAH (nurturing awakening healing)
* Courses about the importance and impact of prenatal and perinatal experiences; workshops by Anna Verwaal, Mia Kalef, Cherionna Menzam Sills, Thomas Harms a.o.
* Innerlijke Alchemy & Deep Dive 1-4 at Life Projects (Dirk Oellibrandt)
* Polyvagal courses
* Radical intimacy
* Sound Medicine
* TAO training from Reinoud Eleveld